I have struggled with an event in my life that has brought me a lot inner pain for about five years now and it has come to a head this past week. It has to do with a situation where I was in a position to give and accomplish much and it lead to some friends and acquaintances scrambling to take away any benefit gained from my efforts. I gave away the rights to my work and another person gained all the benefits from my accomplishments. At first this person was grateful and I willingly gave my support and then, once my help was no longer needed, this person removed me from my place and slowly started persecuting me.
My father warned me about my pride and he was on target, the thing that hurts most is an insult to my pride, my accomplishment, my sense of self worth. I know people who have no ego and would have been able to take my experience in stride and not feel much pain. But it has caused me to age prematurely and my health to progressively get worse.
I don't quite know how will resolve and close this post because the hurt keeps going, I only hope and pray that I make it through and refrain from taking any form of vengeance or retribution, I hope I can continue to let this pain shape me to be a better person.
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