Seeing the Same Things Part2

So let's continue with my journey, in my atheist/agnostic days I prayed to God out of fear. I was funny enough afraid of demons, evil things. I had my own apartment when I was 18-19 years old, I worked nights  and I dreaded being alone when I got home. I had very little human companionship, I remember staying close to my wall because I heard noises from the apartment next door, it helped me feel I was with someone.  

I did not change much after that night that I prayed, I tried to keep in mind that I needed to follow God again but would never return to my fundamentalist past. I would be cautious this time, I would give him little parts of me, only as much that I could bear to let go of. He reached out for me though. During this time I came across the graphic novel "The Dark Knight Returns". I remember browsing it and reading it straight through in one sitting, I was so engrossed by the story, it showed an old Bruce Wayne having his last hurrah, this man had courage, honor, and a sense of right but was shrewd and unorthodox. In fact his super power is his drive to put things right, to make right the wrong done to his parents. God speaks to us in our vernacular, at that time comics and action movies spoke to me and showed me what Good was like and that it is not, by any means, lame. Another good influence to me was I discovered U2, this was when they were still young and post-punk, right before they hit it big with the Joshua Tree. They were also intense and uncompromising.

These little things set my life on a different course, I tasted good apart from the church or religious setting. I received courage to face my lonely world and yearn for better things.